Knocking on Heaven’s Door – Part Three

Posted on August 11, 2014 by curibe2014

Well – Hello Nana….

I left off just as AJ was about to bring in a new energy – my mother in law Robyn Anne Deppe. In transcribing the recording, I recognize that some of the information we readily forked over although there is still very specific information about dates and circumstances that he could not have known. What doesn’t come across in the transcripts, is the change in tenor in AJ. While Gus’s energy was light and made him laugh, he seemed to struggle more with her Robyn’s energy, giving evidence to her strong personality. She was exactly as he describes her, tough as nails, blunt, raw. Meet Robyn….

AJ: They are also bringing up for me, where is the fourteenth significant at as well?

Us: The fourteenth? Um.. my mom (Paul) passed away on the fourteenth. Ten days before he did.

AJ: I was going to say, would your mom know your son… obviously right? So your son is bringing through your mother. Often times we have the older energy that brings in those energies so I feel like it’s your mom stepping forward acknowledging it’s her way of coming through together. The part with your mom’s energy is that she is being like… she is different from your grandmother (chuckles) so I feel like your mom’s energy is… unique… if you will (lots of laughter) And, there is a part of it that your mom wants to acknowledge that “I’m different”. So, she wants to place herself separate from everyone and that is no disrespect to you guys, but I feel like it’s her way of acknowledging her type of energy. I feel like your mom’s energy is like “tell it like it is”, you know what I mean? I feel like she just wants to be blunt, and be open – free; and I don’t want to say like “I miss you – I love you”, but I feel like it’s more so acknowledging that she is still around you and she is also bringing up for you… did you say she passed away recently?

Us: Yeah- last June.

AJ: Is there… your name is Paul though right? Is there like a C or K name connected here? Like Christopher or Cathy connected here?

Us: Cameron [Yes, I know we offered up this name before.]

AJ: Who is that?

Us: Cameron

AJ: Is that her?

Us: No her grandson, my nephew.

AJ: Would she know that newer energy?

Us: Yes – that was the fourth – the birthday on the first.

AJ: Ok, so I feel like your loved ones want to acknowledge that energy. So, I don’t know if there is something going on with Cameron, or something going on with that energy, or to talk about its intuitive ability, but I feel like your mom want to send love to that energy as well and to acknowledge you guys. I feel like when your mom steps forward there is a part of it that she makes me feel like “I’ve done this before, I’ve witnessed it before” and there is part of it that she wants to acknowledge like “I’m over the situation, I’m over the passing”. So I feel like in some sense like I don’t feel like with her, again this was not a tragic event. I feel like with her, it’s like your son’s energy. They are making me feel like there are parallels in what happened; of how they deteriorated and how their body passed over, do you understand that? And there is a part…was there something neurologically going on with your mom?

Us: Uh she had…

AJ: Was it Alzheimer’s, stroke, something like that?

Us: No. She had cancer all over the place.

AJ: Ok. There is a part that she makes me feel like “I’m aware” and “I remember”. So I don’t know if she was going in and out of consciousness but there is a part it like, “I’m remembering and I’m aware of what’s going on here” because she is making me feel like I need to pay attention to the things around me but also acknowledge you guys as well. And is there two girls, two sisters?

Us: Not on her side, I have a sister (Paul).

AJ: You have a sister?

Us: There are just two of us.

AJ: There is only the two of you? Ok because she is bringing the two, the two. [There are two girls. Paul’s sister and her daughter. Another “Duh” moment] Don’t take this the wrong way, but were you close with your mom?

Us: Yeah.

AJ: There is part that it’s almost like I have to bring up like “man up”. So it’s almost kind of like “take charge – take charge of your life”, kind of like “do what you need to do”, because the part of it is that she is like placing you on the same level, but she wants to kind of like put you higher than your sister. So I don’t know if there is a difference between you guys. If it’s like how you guys have your life style or what your situation is, but she wants me to put you higher than what you are. So, if you feel like you are not good enough, if like things are not going well for you, there is a part that she wants to let you know “I want to put you up”. Same thing with your grandfather, there is the same kind of energy of how they come through for you as well. They are also telling me, is there also like an Anthony or an Angie connected here?

Us: Not that we can think of.

AJ: Connect that to your mom’s side of the family. There is definitely an “A.N” name. So, there is going to be like an Andrew, like an Angela.

Us: (Long Pause) her middle name is Anne.

AJ: Ok. That would probably be her way of just acknowledging herself. So, there is not another Anne still living or passed over?

Us: No she was an only child.

AJ: Just making sure. I want to make sure they are not bringing through a separate energy. I need to acknowledge then it’s just your mom identifying herself. So simple yes or no. Did you guys already say your mom’s name? Did you already tell me?

Us: No.

AJ: Ok. The only reason why they would give me their middle name… this is why… if there is someone who has first name – first name, or two that again, either of you guys already mentioned it to me. So is there any reason why your mom would not go by her first name?

Us: Not that we can think of.

AJ: I am just trying to understand why she wouldn’t give me her first name. It’s very rare when they give me the middle name

Us: Because she is different. That would be her.

AJ: Put it is this way, your mom is the type of lady for me that would make me…that would try to tell me how to do my job. You know what I mean? It’s like…

Us: I (Paul) was just going to say she’d make you work for it.

AJ: You know she is. She is making me work for it. I mean, trust me, like she’s the type of lady that is being like “No, you are doing it all wrong. This is how you are supposed to do it”. Like, there’s that type of energy she wants to acknowledge that “this is my way of stepping forward, this is how I want to come through”. It’s like… it’s not that she’s difficult… but she is. That is her energy, but I feel like a lot of it is just her being blunt, being raw. And, I believe that her type of energy is that she just wants to step forward truly for you. Now dad is still here which you’ve already acknowledged, correct?

Us: Yes

AJ: I need to acknowledge dad. I don’t know if they were together or if they were separate. It doesn’t matter to me. But, she’s making me feel like I need to acknowledge her other half and let him know that I am still sending love to him as well. I am also supposed to bring him the green light as well. What the green light represents for him actually is moving more so emotionally on the situation. So, it means like going out and dating, going out and living life. I feel like there is something he needs to do and she wants to send the love and make sure things move in the right path for him as well. She’s also telling me like…do you know? And I don’t know if this is back over to your son … was your mom on morphine?

Us: Uh.. yeah.

AJ: Was your son on morphine, if you don’t mind me asking that?

Us: Yeah, well but just a little bit, just one time.

AJ: If it is was just one that would not make sense.

Us: Oh ok then no.

AJ: Was your mom like… treated…like “give it to me constantly”, I can’t say constantly but…?

Us: At the end, because she was…. for the last month.

AJ: I’m getting this nasty taste in my mouth and I feel like I’m very dry or dehydrated. So there is a part of it that I feel like something going in my pancreatic and that I need to bring up here… like “I’m good with this, I’m glad I left my body.” So I feel like she left the body before anything really quite happened but, she makes like she was aware of it. So, if she was like in a state of mind of being in a coma, I need to acknowledge that she is making me feel like “I am aware and I remember what was going on here as well.” I am also supposed to bring up here and I don’t know if this directed to your mom, or directed to your son or directed to mom and this child but did you actually crawl into bed with your mom?

Us: We both did in both situations actually.

AJ: Ok. Here is a reference that I need to give to both of you guys then; because if it’s individually or with the kid or what not, they are bringing up for me that I have to acknowledge that it’s almost as if you guys took a beat and took a moment and said even though they were still physically here, it’s like “I’ve got to remember this, I’ve got to take this all in, I’ve got to take this energy in, I’ve got to know this moment.” It’s like you remember the beat and there is a part that they want to let you know, “don’t remember that moment”. So don’t remember like the bad times, remember more so the moments that you had with them because I feel like we kind of attach ourselves with that negative emotion saying you know what “what if I had the last chance, what if we could have done this.” They are making me feel like they don’t want you to remember this in how they step forward and how they want to acknowledge you guys. You know what I mean? When these energies step forward, it truly is for your guys, to assist you and help you guys grow in the right way as well. They are also showing to me, like they are bringing up my brother’s birthday, so you already validated June though, right? You already said June though right? [When Gus took his last breath and slipped away he looked so beautiful we wanted to keep that moment forever. The fact that he said this was particularly poignant]

Us: Yes, we said June.

AJ: Is there another June connection or another “six” connection that I am actually supposed to bring up here?

Us: On Paul’s side? Um well – we have a niece born in June.

AJ: Going to be born right?

Us: No. We have two nieces born in June and one will be four in June actually.

AJ: Did that happen last year? Then it wouldn’t be it.

Us: No.

AJ: I feel like I have to go with last year or go like a year back.

Us: Well, they both passed away in June. Both our son and his mom passed away in June.

AJ: Your son passed away in June? That would make sense because I think you said mom is June right? You said someone is in June.

Us: Both of them passed away in June.

AJ: Ok. I have to acknowledge…but they are making me feel like there is another date that is significant, of another event that is connected here. So, it’s just both of their passing’s they want to acknowledge as to how they are stepping forward here as well. And I feel like the circle of energy of how they step forward it’s about like being like ambushed. I don’t know if you ever want to be ambushed by like your mom, but there is a part of it that she wants to jump around and like “I want to ambush you. I just want to come at you and throw information” but I feel like it’s more in the spiritual way to assist you in the right way. But, I feel like with your mom’s energy is like a tough love type of thing. It’s like even though it wasn’t the right information, it would be like she would think she was right with the information. So, there is a part of it that she wants to acknowledge is that she is still right. So whatever you are doing that you would say like “mom would have said this” she makes like she still would have been right. The thing with your mom’s energy in how she is stepping forward is that she’s still the same energy. She is kind of being the dominant one if you will, because there is a very strong energy at how she comes through. But, there is not anything she wants to stress on her passing. So again, it is obviously someone who knew what was going on and had kind of lived their life if you will. But I don’t think they lived their life to the fullest. I feel like there is a part of it where it is like very nonchalant, like kind of just went with the flow of how things went but…… I might be switching or I might still be with you guys…. just switching to someone else or they are bringing through another energy for you guys…. Was your mom a smoker?

Us: Uh, hugh.

AJ: Like not an occasional smoke but smoker.

Us: Yes.

AJ: She’s making me feel like she’s still smoking on the other side. So she’s made like she’s enjoying what she’s doing, like she’s having a great old-time on the other side. Like this is the type of lady and this may not be her, but her persona, what she is showing to me, this is the type of lady that would be sitting down smoking a cigarette and playing cards, you know what I mean? That’s the type of energy – how she is coming across to me like “I’m doing what’s normal to me” this is normal. And, I don’t know if that was a cause towards her passing, but I feel like she should not have been smoking. You know what I mean? But if she could have smoked in the hospital or a facility, she would have done it, even though she was not supposed to. That’s the type of lady, she is making me feel like I am beyond the boundaries. There are no boundaries for me and I want you to know on the spiritual realm, there are no boundaries on the other side to come through and communicate with either one of you guys. I feel like, how she is coming through, she wants to acknowledge” I want to bring through my grandson but I want you to know that I’m here for you as well”. So, here is the unique part, I don’t know if your child and your mom is someone you want to link with, or that you wanted to know that they met up together. They are making me feel like your son kind of like greeted each other. Like your son also greeted your mom and your grandmother and your grandparents greeted the younger energy as well. So I feel like the elders do bring that energy, but I do find it very unique, that your son brought in your mother, rather than your mother bringing through your son, you know what I mean? It is usually the opposite of how this process works for me and I feel like again, your son had to have been like an old soul. He obviously had some sort of experience because… like how he is coming through to me, he was aware of the process. But, he is making me feel like there is no responsibility that I need to worry about here as well. [In re-listening to this part, we think he was actually talking about Paul’s grandmother, Maureen. This is more in keeping with her personality. Smoking and playing cards was definitely her thing.]

Knocking on Heaven’s Door – Part Two

Posted on August 4, 2014 by curibe2014

Is this really Gus?

I left off just as Gus was “coming through”. I admit the first part with Paul’s grandfather and my grandmother was somewhat generic. The spirits were just sending love and promising to be with us but what he was about to tell us about Gus and then Paul’s mother would be far more specific and really the capture the “spirits” of Gus and his Nana.

AJ: Is there a younger energy passed over for you guys as well? I have to acknowledge, is this yours? (pointing at me) or both of you guys?

Us: Both of us

AJ: Both of you guys; Ok – I have to acknowledge that grandma is bringing through a younger energy and she wants to acknowledge that it is over there with me as well. When they bring this energy it makes me feel like it’s a ball of energy, so it makes me feel like its vibrant, its vibrant, its vibrant. And they are also bringing up for me, now I can totally misinterpret this but I actually feel like there is no responsibility connected to this energy, so like there is a point if they push responsibility and no blame is connected here so I feel like there was no way of preventing it, no way of stopping it. Do you understand that? And there is a part that I am actually supposed to bring up here, now this…would this actually be a young energy? Not someone that is older? This wouldn’t be like someone who is eighteen, twenty right?

Us: No

AJ: Here is the thing and I am going to be completely honest with you guys, I actually feel like a young energy … like a kid. I don’t know if there was life expectancy with this energy but there is part that I feel like I need to talk about like “I am living my life” and “I’m growing up with you guys as well.” They are also bringing up for me to talk about August. So where is August connected at?

Us: That was his name.

AJ: So it would be just their way of acknowledging and their way of stepping forward as well and there is a part of it that they want to step forward for you that “we’re here for you as well” I don’t know how long ago the individual passed away, you don’t need to tell me, but there is a part of it they are making me feel like “I am well adapted on this side” and “I want to come through for you guys”, the part with the energy is that and this will sound very unique, um… are you familiar with the radio flyer, like the little red wagon? Is there a reason why I am actually supposed to bring that up? [AJ told us he communicates with the “other side” through his “spirit guides” so the “they” must refer to them]

Us: He had one.

AJ: Do you guys still have it?

Us: Yeah.

We found the radio flyer here. The thing about this spot is that Gus used to spend a great deal of time perched on these two roofs.

AJ: Make note to it. I don’t know why they are bringing up here, I don’t know if this is something I need to make note of like it moves by itself, I have no idea but there is a part of that the energy is saying that “I’m still around this wagon” so if it’s a toy wagon or actually a big wagon I need to acknowledge like the radio flyer type of thing, that “I am still around you guys” as well.

You can just make out the radio flyer in this picture.

AJ: The part with your energy is that it’s making me feel like, and I’m being completely honest, it’s almost like I’m here and then I’m gone. Like I don’t, and I’m being completely honest, like I feel like a part with it’s that it’s not that they did not know what happened it just happened that’s the type of energy they are bringing up here; but they are also bringing up for me like, do you know if there was anything going on with its like blood stream that I have to bring up here? Like, either something was enlarged?… When the individual, your son did not, your son? He didn’t internally bled-out or bleed-in did he?

Us: No. He had a…He had an infection.

AJ: Ok. He is bringing up his blood disease like whatever happened in his blood, but he is making me feel like something internally happened with him so and I’m sorry to be personal here but do you if this actually physically shut down his whole system?

Us: Yes [Gus died of Septicemia, his internal organs shut down one by one over less than twenty-four hours]

AJ: Ok. I need to acknowledge, I don’t feel like this was one thing that happened as if it was a heart attack, an aneurism, you know what I mean this isn’t something that slowly deteriorated but I feel like it just snowballed with him, do you understand that? And there is a part of it that he makes me feel like I need to acknowledge you (pointing at Paul). So I don’t know if you still communicate with your son but he wants to acknowledge Dad, Dad, Dad and Happy Father’s Day because it’s coming up so I have to acknowledge, he wants to be like the father, he still wants to be like the dad type of energy around you, and still wants to kind of like, what I am seeing and don’t take the wrong way but like my dog going around my leg so I feel like it’s that the energy that it still wants to be connected with you still wants to hug you as well and they are also bringing up for me now, was August not supposed to be his name though?

Us: [We giggle but don’t offer any more info. No one called him August but Gus and since we didn’t give him a middle name, he always wanted one and gave himself the name Zach.]

AJ: Or two am I actually supposed to call him by a different name? Ok He is making me feel like I am not supposed to call him by like his name or I am actually supposed to call him by a different name and he wants to acknowledge like “I want to joke around about this”, “I want to joke around about this” as well and there is a type of energy, and don’t take this the wrong way, but I have to direct it to either to you mom because he is making me feel like “mom it’s not my fault”, “mom it’s not my fault” – so if there is either responsibility that you feel like you personally could have prevented it or stopped it, I need to let you know – I need to dust my hands clean from the situation and I need to let you know that “I made it over there safely”. (Medium pauses looks off to the floor) Would he be over five? [I did feel and sometimes still do feel responsible that I did not prevent his death. I missed the clues and didn’t push harder to get another treatment.]

Us: Yes

AJ: Would he be eight?

Us: He was ten.

AJ: Where is like the eight significant at?

Us: He’d been ok (in remission) for eight years.

AJ: For eight years he was sick?

Us: No he was fine for eight years and then he got sick again.

AJ: (Pauses. Looks off to the side). Were you guys… Were you guys refusing medical advice… with your son? Like meaning like you guys were supposed to put on a respirator but took him off or like you were supposed to give him meds but you didn’t do it? Like they are showing me A. M. A. which represents “against medical advice” so is there something that you guys should have had done or something the doctors should have done but you guys didn’t do it?

Us: I… I don’t know, I mean we were trying to get him to…there is the stem cells thing but that wasn’t really against medical advice.

AJ: Like how, like what were you going to say?

Us: Well we opted not to follow through on one protocol of one treatment. [We refused to return his stem cells immediately after one of his treatments because they warned us that while they are “cleaned” some cancer cells can still get by. It would take a long time but his bone marrow could recover on its own, he relapsed anyway.]

AJ: Was that both of you guys’ decision?

Us: Yes

AJ: Here is the part of that, he is making me feel like I need to acknowledge this thing so if you guys feel like you should have done it, you should have went into it, again whatever the situation is like don’t feel responsible that you guys should have done it because I feel like it would have happened anyway and I’m sorry to be blunt about it but I feel like this energy already made its transition you know what I mean, it’s already on its verge and the part of it about this energy, it wants to validate for you is that (gardener makes lots of noise) sorry…sorry about the noise let me close this door real quick guys I don’t want to be distracted (closes door) but I feel like to make sense of what’s happening there is a part of it that I need to acknowledge the medical thing that happened like prior to the situation, prior before the passing and I feel like I need to let you know do not worry about that as well. They are also bringing up for me…like do you… you guys don’t have a collie?

Us: No we had one. I had a collie a long time ago. [This one really got us, not even Gus knew the collie, it passed before he was born and note he did not just say “dog” but collie – the collie’s name was Laddie]

AJ: Is the collie passed over?

Us: Yeah.

AJ: I have to let you know he has the collie with him. (We start to laugh) I have to let you know he is with him on the other side because to me he is petting the dog (makes petting motion with his hand) to me he looks like Lassie but he is showing me the collie he has it on the other side. He also wants to validate that we are part of the energy, we are part of the family so again whatever time frame has passed he wants to let you know we are still together, we are still one big family. But I don’t know if he knew your grandmother in life but he wants to let you know “I need to thank grandma for doing this and I need to thank grandpa for doing this” basically, these other loved ones for bringing through this energy. The part with your son’s energy though is that, it’s like…I don’t want to be rude about it but it’s like he already knew but I don’t know if you guys told him what was going to happen because there is a part that I feel like there was a knowing that was there, like it’s almost like he knew he was going to make his transition, like he knew what was going on, like I don’t feel like this kid wasn’t aware of the situation but he is just making me feel like it just happened. — [We never told Gus he had “cancer”, we never told him he might die, actually he was doing really well despite the second relapse with his chemo. His death was not expected when it happened]– Do you know, and I don’t want to be personal here, (pause) do you know if he actually, and I don’t want to be blunt with this but did he like just pass away in his bed?

Us: Yeah, well not in his bed he was in a hospital bed.

AJ: He was in a medical bed because I feel like “I didn’t wake up”, like I feel like “I fell asleep and didn’t wake up” there is that type of thing that he is bringing up here so I don’t feel again like this was a cardio thing but I almost feel like I took my last breath and he wants to validate like “I’m still breathing”, “I’m still breathing” so if there is an issue that happened here within respiratory he wants to validate that I am still committed to being with you guys as well. He is also bringing up for me like if I first walk into your front door, I actually feel like I am directly into your living room but I feel like off to the left is an offset dining room, is that correct?

Us: Off to the left? No that is the living room.

AJ: Ok, then I need walk to be in there. Do actually have a memorial in there of him?

Us: Yeah

Gus’ Memorial exactly where he described on the left side of the family room.

AJ: I need to acknowledge whatever is up or whatever is put out, he wants to let you know “thank you for doing this” so if this is even some sort of, I don’t even want to call it a shrine but I feel like it’s more like memorabilia in some sense he wants to let you know “I’m known for this” and “people see me”. Do you understand that?

Us: Yeah

AJ: And there’s a part, he didn’t have like a, and this is going to sound funny to you, you know the Little Rascals?

Us: Yeah

AJ: You know Spanky?

Us: Yeah

AJ: Did he? Is there a hat that I am actually supposed to bring up that he has? You know how like the little spins?

Us: Yeah

AJ: Is there a hat that I am actually supposed to bring up or is there a reference that I am actually supposed to bring up to like the bowl hair cut? Did he have a bowl hair cut? I don’t know where he is going with this. But I feel like it’s about his appearance about either what he is wearing or what his hair looked like. So they are showing me Spanky. So I need to acknowledge this.

Gus and his hat. He always asked me when he was going to be “normal” again – so it was curious that AJ used that language.

Us: Oh, he had no hair so and he used to cover it up with a hat.

AJ: I need to acknowledge that he has his hair back, that he has his hair back because I feel like he wants to joke around about his looks and appearance and he wants to acknowledge that “I’m normal again” and I feel like with his type of energy he wants to me to feel like you guys weren’t hurting him. So I don’t know if there was fear that you guys were putting him through trauma, or you guys were putting him through the situation, but he’s making me feel like (chuckles) “it’s all good” like, “it’s all good” like there is a part of his energy that “I’m still alive”. I’m also supposed to bring up here, do you also have another younger energy, female energy connected here like still living?

Us: Um. I mean nieces.

AJ: You don’t have another daughter? I mean you don’t have a daughter? You are not pregnant are you?

Us: Not that I know of.

AJ: (Very awkward pause) I don’t want to get too personal but are you guys trying to have another kid?

Us: No but we are not preventing it.

AJ: Here is the thing that I feel like I need to bring in a female energy not a male energy so if someone just had a child that would make sense, if someone is going to have a child that would make sense but if none of that I need to bring up a new energy coming in. So it means like you’re pregnant, you are going to get pregnant, um…I’m fluttering that is why so when someone is fluttering I know there is a baby situation going on.

Us: Ok. That would be his gift to us, I guess. [No – I am not pregnant, at my age that would be a miracle BUT my cousin did give birth to a beautiful baby girl April 2014.]

AJ: No I feel like it’s his way of acknowledging that circle of energy so if there is something you guys are… try not to stop it because I feel like there is a new energy so if this is something you guys choose to do, I feel like there is a new energy coming in. So it’s his way of kind of acknowledging himself and acknowledging that circle of energy as well. Why would he bring up for me like…was this individual really hooked up to like IVs and everything?

Us: Yes, a lot.

AJ: Like I mean… like poked and prodded, like the whole nine ok… there is a part of it that I feel like this child is actually to me an old soul type of energy, it’s almost like it’s lived it’s life and it’s making me feel like “I’ve done this before and I was actually here to assist you and help you”. I feel like with your son’s energy with both of you guys, is that even though your son passed away there is a part that he is making me feel like, you guys still haven’t gone through the grieving process and truly let go of that situation. It doesn’t mean that you guys have to forget about him but it is to help you guys move forward because he is making me feel like “mom and dad” he is showing me green lights over on both of you guys which represents to let go and to move on. It doesn’t mean to detach from the situation but just know he is part of your life and I feel like in some sense I want to lead with dad more so than mom, it is almost as if you feel guilty for being happy. You know what I mean, so it’s like if you are not happy it’s just like I should be thinking about my son, I should not be happy and having a good time and he is like “dad you need to have a good time, dad you got to enjoy your life”. And they are also bringing up for me, they are bringing up a boat around you so I don’t know if you guys are going on a cruise or if you are going on a trip, but he is bringing up a big boat that’s around you. So why is the boat significant here?

Us: We went on a trip recently [We thought he was talking about Spain.]

AJ: Was it a cruise?

Us: No.

AJ: What is the boat referencing?

Us: Oh We were supposed to go on a cruise but then he got sick again. [We had booked a cruise to Baja the year he relapsed that we never took.]

AJ: Was that because of him?

Us: Yeah.

AJ: Make the cruise happen. Take the cruise. He will be there for that event, because I feel like I need to acknowledge like bringing the enjoyment of having a good time so if it’s something you felt you know we couldn’t do it because you had to spend more time with your son, our son if you will, he wants to let you know mom and dad enjoy that time and make it happen as well.

It will take another two posts to finish our “reading” with AJ. He actually spent more than forty minutes just with us. ALSO – we are taking the cruise. The entire family is making that trip happen in less that two weeks and just to prove that Gus is always helping us – Carnival honored our previously paid and “lost” deposits for everyone.

Knocking on Heaven’s Door – Part One

Posted on August 3, 2014 by curibe2014

Hello… heaven?…

Grief, like being Mexican, has a way of making you do things you might not otherwise have done. Only a Mexican would eat a piece of fruit with lime, salt and lots of chile and only a grieving mother would consider going to a medium but I am both, so when it seemed like a medium was calling me, I went.

Shortly after returning from our walk in Spain, I was channel surfing my favorite radio presets when I came across my “latino” station in the midst of their “medium” segment. I’ve been a fan of the station for years and I had never heard this type of segment so I stopped and listened to it for a while before turning it off. Had that been the only time that I heard the medium I would have never gone, but as it happened it seemed like every time I was in the car for the next few weeks I caught that very segment.

As far as I could tell, the medium, AJ Barrera, was really good although what did I know? My only exposure to mediums were on TV via the Ghost Whisperer and Crossing Over with John Edwards. AJ though, appeared to be specific about dates and names, not just throwing out “I am getting an “A” name”. It was even more impressive because his readings were over the phone and therefore he could not be “reading” the person in front of him. So, I acquiesced to the universe and looked him up on-line, discovering that not only was he local, but that he was having a “spirit circle” a month away. My first thought was to go by myself – in secret – just in case it didn’t t work out. What if it was just “mental-ism” like on the Mentalist or Gus’ spirit did not even show up? but, as I was signing up I noticed that there were two spots left and decided I should at least ask my husband who to my shock said he would go.

It was only after I paid the small fee that I looked at the small print. The session was scheduled to last an hour and the sold out group would consist of eight. While everyone was guaranteed a reading, we’d get what – fifteen minutes? I began to fret. How could I be so gullible? Could they look us up? How would I prevent myself from leaping to conclusions? I was tempted to cancel when we received an e-mail confirming our attendance at the spirit circle on Saturday May 25th, but then I thought..What if Gus came through?

When the day finally arrived, we were a mess of nerves. We left and arrived far too early for the session and were forced to sit in the car until it was time to go in. I concentrated on asking the universe for a small favor, to let us be the only ones in the circle, while Paul made sure we were “unreadable”, no Gus pendants, no letters, nothing with us that could give us away. When it seemed like we’d waited enough, we went in.

We were received by a much younger man than we’d imagined. AJ is young, twenty-eight but his baby face makes him look even younger. He has the kind of face that puts you at ease right away, the kind that says trust me – I told myself not to. He led us into the living room of his home where two other ladies were already waiting. My heart sank, I had hoped to be alone. We talked about the things people do when they don’t know each other; the sun, the LA traffic, the holiday weekend while we waited for the other four. They never showed up.

What I am about to share with you is what he told us – word for word. We have a recording of the entire session and I spent hours making sure I wrote down exactly what was said. The skeptic in me says he must have read us like an open book. There are lots of things that are obvious, like the fact that everyone has a grandparent that’s passed over, or that a couple showing up together has likely lost a child. I admit that at times we offered more than we should have verbally and perhaps non verbally but there are lots of things he could not have known or that we can’t imagine him going through the trouble to find out just for our sake. Most impressive is that more often than not he did not even look at us directly but down and to the side. So here it goes…..

AJ: Actually I’ll start with you guys first of all. How are you guys related please?

Us: Husband and Wife

AJ: Ok. So the first thing I do want to bring up here. I actually have an older gentleman that does step forward first of all this will actually be most like a dad figure that has passed over. If anything I actually feel like I am directed with you. So what was your name again? Paul?

Us: Paul

AJ: I want to link with you so do you know your dad’s side of the family pretty well?

Us: Pretty much, yeah.

AJ: Ok. Do you know if his father has passed over please?

Paul’s Grandfather Raymond – The parallels we forgot is that although our older son is not biologically Paul’s, I named my son Ramon – spanish form of Raymond.

Us: Yeah [Paul’s grandfather lived in Iowa, Paul was much closer to his mother’s father so it was a surprise to have this grandfather come forward.]

AJ: Ok. I want to lead with him and your dad is still here?

Us: Yeah

AJ: Ok. I need to acknowledge like his side and need give the love to his son. I don’t know if your dad is open to this work but I need to acknowledge that type of energy. When they bring this up for me like your grandfather is making me feel like I need to acknowledge you. So I don’t know if there is actually parallels in dates or parallels in names that I am actually supposed to bring up here, but there’s like a times two so where is that connected please?

Us: (Silence we are totally blank…….)

AJ: Is there like parallels in names like your first name is like someone else’s middle name?

Us: Uh. Yes. My dad’s middle name is his dad’s name.

AJ: Ok. So that would his way of acknowledging his son and acknowledging the energy. So again, I don’t know if your dad is open to this work, but he does want to step forward and wants to acknowledge his son type of energy as well. They are also bringing up for me to talk about April so where is April connected at here?

Us: (More silence…)

AJ: Connect it to your dad’s side.

Us: No. I don’t… It’s not coming to mind right now.

AJ: I still feel like I’m here with you (pointing at Paul).

Us: April? No.

AJ: And where is like the hard like J or G name connected here?

Us: Still Blank

AJ: Where is like a George or Joseph?

Us: There is no one I don’t…there is a Raymond is a….

AJ: UH. UH. Don’t give me names.

Us: Oh sorry. No I don’t…Not…

AJ: And this person is still living they are not passed over.

Us: (Still Blank) [We never did figure this out]

AJ: Is your dad one of four?

Us: No. Two.

AJ: So its April connected. They keep bringing up four, four, four.

Us: No.

AJ: That’s ringing is huge, so the four is very significant how they are showing it to me.

Us: I don’t know. I can’t think of it can you? I can’t think of it either.

AJ: Is someone born like on the fourth of a month, like January fourth, February fourth?

Us: No.

AJ: They are bringing this four like huge, this is like huge, they are not letting this go.

Us: Cameron is born on the fourth I think… of February? [Cameron by the way is not born on this day]

AJ: That’s fine as long as it’s the fourth, who is Cameron connected to?

Us: Paul’s side, my nephew, my sister’s son…

AJ: (Pause) And is there a separate energy for you (pointing at me) like a mom figure passed over?

Us: For me? Yes.

AJ: But mom is still here?

Us: Yes

My grandmother Elvira – the four connection we could not think of – her birthday was November 4th and my mother had four children – duh….

AJ: Then I want to link this onto to your mom’s side of the family, so I don’t know if you know your mom’s side of the family but there is definitely an older female that does step forward like a mom that steps forward but she’s making me feel like I need to acknowledge these parallels, so I don’t know if there is like parallels in dates or parallels in four connection but I feel like I need to acknowledge that type of energy so I don’t know how well your grandfather knew like your sort of energy, like your family now but there is definitely a feeling that he steps forward and wants to acknowledge you guys and wants to acknowledge like the ties that bring you guys together. I don’t know if you are recently married or you guys been together for quite some time but there is a part that he wants to acknowledge like and the female figure that I want to step forward. With this female figure there is a part of it when she talks about her passing, like I feel like this was more like respiratory how it happened, I feel like it’s more of a natural thing, I don’t feel like it was like was a tragic event as how it happened. Do you understand that please?

Us: Yes [My grandmother did not recover from surgery for a brain aneurysm but she continued breathing on her own for a while after she was taken off the respirator]

AJ: And there is a part of it that she is also bringing up for me, now they are bringing up for me … is there also like a Margaret or Marie connected here?

Us: Um Marie? [Me not trying to leap to conclusions.]

AJ: Yeah – who is like the M – R name connected to.

US: My mom, Maria?

AJ: Ok. So that would be her way of acknowledging her daughter giving her love to your daughter. So your mom’s mom is passed over?

Us: Yes.

AJ: So it would be her way of acknowledging her. So the only reason they give the names is to acknowledge these individuals. I don’t know if you knew your grandmother well in life, but she is making me feel like I need to give the love to you as well. The unique part about her is that she wants to definitely be like the mom energy, not the grandma energy so there is a part of her that she wants to let you know “I wanna give love” but she comes across as a very, very dominant energy almost like a male’s energy where she kind of pushes your loved ones out-of-the-way (pointing at Paul) and says this is my turn this is like my type of show as well. She is also bringing up for me, now I don’t know if this is either on your level or I need to drop it younger. Is there a younger energy passed over for you guys as well? I have to acknowledge. Is this yours? (pointing at me) or both of you guys?

Until next post…….